JessicaMarie

2:04 am, One of the earliest nights I have had in a few days. My body is finally ease and my mind is happy to catch up to my level and just relax. I feel like Im newly single and ready to Live and I hate to say its because my current circumstances, but I think its just what I should have been doing for quiet sometime. I can honestly say I have been doing it all for me and I am blessed to have some amazing people to bark with, but theres a whisper I must sit still to catch in my wind, that only comes when I am fully ready to receive... and I think I am ready.

I had an eery feeling about how I would feel uncomfortable with sharing again that I have been diagnosed with cancer again, I really could've just sat back, dealt with it on my own and faced what is to come. Of course I believe God has a mission for me, but loosing a best friend to cancer and being pre-diagonosed in the same month #fail. I guess I chose to take my news and handle it and roll with the punches because I did not feel inspired nor did I want share the "news". Whats great about letting everyone know that were finally back to their happy lives that one of their family members or close friend, a person that they love has Cancer again for the 3rd time, that the Bone Marrow transplant didn't work, that we just loss a great friend and family a couple weeks ago and Hey! mine is back too?! I did not feel inspired to go and get my non profit more active, I just laid flat and avoiding the solution. It wasn't until I learned that I had to use a donor out