Boredom and Faith

Boredom

Lol, boredom is what is such a distraction, no motivation to complete what you really really wanna do. It is sad. But in reality when it comes down to it you will be really bored when you are broke from non completion of life accomplishments, make a habit to do something productive towards your ultimate goals and complete one thing at a time. Boredom will not conqueror me and fulfill me with empty activities of distractions. I will not let frustration consume of all the time I’ve wasted being ignorant to this concept, because that is Life, god obvious didn’t want this to click until RT now. Not that he DIDN’T want me to have this, but this is the time he gave that power to me, and its funny because it came from a small comment from a friend, a comment that he has said and my family has said over a million times. Lol, life.

I’m so excited over this that I couldn’t even sleep I had to write, but believe there were…. a lot of distractions along the way. I HAD t o check my FB, I HAD to call in my hours…Oh, my desktop was so messy! I had to clean it up!!!! Move that file here, oh that one there lol life! Oh Now my desktop is all neat I MUST have a new desktop screen, lets browse threw those. Lol, but Im still here completing this chapter to you. It will be some sleep lost,  but not my life. I will be in control from now on, I will sit still and allow him to guide me, He knows my heart, he knows my soul, he knows the friend in me that is loyal and forgiving. And I know he will deliver.

I am thankful today for all that life has given me, all the good all the bad, all the humility all the pain all the fun all the laughs all the tears. Im so thankful, aren’t you? If not I have no idea of the person I could be. I love this person that I am and obsess over that woman I’m growing to be. I think we all know what type of person we WANT to be and then there’s who we are. Becoming that person is this little thing called Life.  The best way I think is just to stay in connect with our Father above and never lose faith, Never let your mind get sick.

Faith is like a bank account.  Modern day terms, lets use Paris Hilton as example; or an heir of Bill Gates…. Your car brakes down…oh, you’re car stops working, you’re hungry, you forgot to lock the door at your house. You would feel so secure, Ill BUY a new one I have money in the bank and unlimited amount of income…. I have a cell phone and a servant at home Ill call to remind them to lock the back door…. Faith is unlimited. Faith is knowing, and security on your life. Life will be rough, but stand firm, it is all in your growth to becoming YOU, a curve a climax in the great tale of your blessed life. We can’t ALL have the same story…. Sure there would be many complaints then. “Why Lord?!!! Why must everything be so boring! Why didn’t you let me fall in love with him?! I liked him a lot! And he was so so so cute!” .

 Okay “oh No!” your car stops working! I know it’s a terrible terrible terrible thing, I have been threw 4 cars now! Im 23! First one blew up on the 99, second one was a van with a busted muffler, and busted windows, third one got me by to the forth ,which is now favorite car (internally she’s a lil ill) But all I m trying to say I never lost faith, every towed car I’ve had, I managed and learned…. That lil inch of red aint worth it, walk a lil further for A park (damn LA), car blew up I was excited!!!!! Yay! I got full coverage Im gonna get me a brand new car!!!!!! Im alive and happy! Til mom pulls up and barring news of these terms “liability” BC I wasn’t helping pay insurance, learned Full coverage rocks liability doesn’t. A muffler you might ask Im still not too sure what it does (Ill Google it after this typing) but I know when it’s cracked…. It is as loud as shit! and sets off car alarms and definitely draws some attention to a 19 year old attractive young lady leaving from the mall in a 1995 white 12 passenger seated Chevy Van! But I have some great memories traveling with multiple friends in that Van! I was blessed. I had faith I would always be ok. I would make it because God wants me to. Because I want to so BAD. And I will always keep my faith. Deposits are being made every single day!

Goodnight

Smile.

Jessica