JessicaMarie

I said I would blog more and I have not… I am not ashamed! lol! I am on my way out the door right now ( lol meaning I still have to throw on pants before mom pulls up) and while I laid in bed thinking I might have over lapped my agenda by planning this brunch for my mom and how I will probably not get around to complete any of the task I have set for myself to become a successful being in life, I realized my a%$ is still laying in bed under the cover.  So, here I am making myself proud and  instead off being all warm, bundled up thinking how much I suck for NOT doing this, I am doing it!  in the cold in my underwear not in bed and still needing to throw something on before my mom calls saying she is on her way! Since I am on a roll I'll continue a bit more, Last night … last night was intense…. I am going thru some deep emotional and spiritual changes right now in my life. I am realizing more and more how independent I am and how much I wish I could just be dependent on at le

Sooo its been a while since I have posted a blog and boy oh boy do I miss blogging, trust I blog all day in my head but it never seems to hit this wall. I am in a pickle as some might call it, but it can be considered a good thing. I have a split decision to make in my life and sometimes I just don't know which way to go? My career to success and my road to my academic goals sometimes seem to collide and leave "poor ol me" in a rut of thinking poop pile! I want to be successful and I want to complete school and I want to stay active in my nonprofit but geesh how can a girl do it all? I have the support and I have the drive but there's not much I can do to make my body cooperate while chemo and rest are number one priorities for it right now. I feel like a log in a river just floating along with all the right lumps sitting on top but there isn't much I can do to reach them all at once. The more I try to reach I just spin around back into to the river. I ho

So from this Valentines day I learned I am for real mean! I so need to work on that! I hear it allll time and I think everyone is a bit too sensitive or doesn't understand me but in reality I AM MEAN! And especially to boys/men! I totally think I hurt someone's feeling out of my own insecurities and being blocked off... we shall see how I manage to fix this one..... Good Night, Mean Girl